i watched bride wars with fang and von ytd.
i swallowed my tears but uncontrollably, they rolled down.
i think, i cried badly.
"because i don't want to quarrel with you for the rest of my life, because we know we want different things in life, you already know that."
and i cried, because i felt that i miss my best friend.
and somehow, i continued..
and i cried, because i've let go of love.
and i cried, because we've made a clean break.
and i continue crying even until now, because i am upset.
and i don't know what else i can do, except crying.
cried till my eyes are so sore.
cried till my nose feel so pain.
cried till i didn't felt like crying but yet still cry.
i don't want to cry alone anymore.
i hate crying to pillows, and soft toys, and to myself, or even in front of lappy.
and i drank at shin ytd.
i know they didn't wanna drink but they accompanied me knowing that im upset.
see, im crying again.
i don't know why, but i guess,
my best acheivement in life, is always hurting people who loves me deeply.
hurting boyfriends, hurting my mother, hurting my father, hurting myself.
why?
because im just another worthless girl, i know.
and stop asking, im miserable enough, and i know it.
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