Friday, October 31

DUMB DUMB DI DI DI DUMB

bodoh bodoh bodoh!!!
see! i was getting tired and wanted to sleep, when i turn over to take the mineral water which i left on my bed, i realised that the bottle was empty. the cap was still on and it is tightly sealed. but look at my bed.



no holes in the bottle, cap is tightly sealed.
how did water get out?!




and look at my bed. wtf. i just asked aunty to take my two pillows out to dry. and now what? i am gonna sleep without pillow.. wth.



i think it's kinda scary also. i really cannot figure out how the water came out.
maybe it's some ghost wanting to drink it? wtf.
scared-ededed.


byessss. i am like, so tired.
oh! and, good night people! (:

Thursday, October 30

MY DEAR FRIEND.

this is why i love paralove so much (:


[E] is for [E]na says:
anyway... seems like u've been facing many friendship problems recently. and with sw not around, u pls do take care alrights. just wanna let u know that contrary to what u've been facing recently, still, not all friends are like that =) u've plenty of friends around u, and i'll always be around okays. just beep me if u ever need me someday.


[E] is for [E]na says:
much loves, cindynah!


plove, hope you don't mind ya, i just want to show the world how much you love me. haha! =p







and to be fair, not forgetting the others who loves me like plove does (:
shuana (sacrifices her gym time for me, listens to me and loves me!), emeline (calls me up occasionally to ask if im fine, esp these few days, that i am sick), qianyi (pm me in msn whenever im not online and ask me to tc, sound worried if there's things happening to me), priscilla (always there, and giving lots of concern for me, calling me up and texting me all the time, im her nahnahchan yo.) , fangfang (needless to say, my silent listener, fair to everyone, she just listens and that is good enough), yvonne (like i said, sometimes the least expected ones will be the ones showing their care for you) , monica (and this pretty girl is even more unexpected than ever, and im thankful enough that she actually bother to show me her care) , yingwen (given me the assurance that she's indeed my friend, one who will be there) , mamadiah (forever very patience and willing to listen, supports me and welcome me all the time.)
..and forgive me if i didn't note ur name down, im a tad too sick, my mind's all burnt.



and of cos, my babyboy (given me the best in our relationship).




and

this is so so nice.
i swear i really felt like crying after watching it, do you think it is true?

Wednesday, October 29

OUT OUT OUT!


fever check, 37,8 degree 'c.
almost getting well!


im heading out now, meeting fangfang at bugis for dinner with alan and edwind. but i don't think i can make it in time, so by the time i reach there, ill only be seeing fang2.

then we'll prolly be at bukitpanjang strolling around doing nothing.

well, i've said it. exam period is boring -.-



jellybeanies for paralove ytd!
and big bunny lolli for fang2 ltr! (:

umeya has nice gummies around!

FEVER SHOO!




fever came back again.
it feels bad when i had to miss studying with my classmates at town. felt so lousy, i want to meet up, and i feel like studying, so much.



it's nice when you sip your favourite frapp while reading through your notes.
it's nice when your friends are around so you can turn to help whenever you need it.



but i am so so sick, i can't smell properly, i can't taste well, i can't breathe well and i can't speak well. something seems to be stucked at my throat. i bet baby feels the same as well, he was sick 1 day before me. exactly the same symtoms, just that he got no fever..



to think i was still bragging about being able to handle fever well.. haha, and it came back -.-



i don't care le, later i just pop in another panadol, drink some water, eat some food and go out, but.. no one wanna go out withh cindyy.. yawns.

exam period is boring.

SICK SICK SICKKKKK

cindy is still sick but her fever has subside already.
it's 37.7 degree 'c now, so much better than in the evening, 38.9 degree 'c.



see baby?
i don't need a doctor, i know how to take care of myself.
the trick to fever is drink alot of water and make yourself perspire. (:




i think i will update more tomorrow, although fever has already gone down, but i still feel heavy, heavy not only on my head, mind, but also on my heart.


why do bestfriends always fall apart?





sometimes i really wonder, is it that only i feel that she's my bestfriend, but she don't feel it? is it that i am too thick skinned that i go around saying she's my closest friend, but it seems like i've never heard it from her before... ):


everything's over, and i do not wish for any dispute anymore.
as long as this matter is solved, i am relieved, i feel so much better that we actually ended everything peacefully. therefore, from this moment onwards, i am not gonna bother about that particular issue anymore. i am just gonna leave it as it is, afterall, things had turned so ugly, and we won't want it to turn for the worst.



have you ended a long friendship before?
tell me how you feel, how you overcome it? (:







work with paralove was super fine and delicious (cos we had toastbox laksa), and catched up with yingwen and mamadiah after work at bukit batok.


i am too tired, will post the visuals up tomorrow.


thanks to all my caring friends.
it feels so nice when i know there are friends reading my blog, and knowing that i am sick, they actually called up. so sweet of you girls! (:




bye people!
sorry for the boring post, bear with me for a few days ya!
good night and sweet sweet dreamsss (:

Tuesday, October 28


good morning, cindy is still running a fever at 38degree'c.


haha cindy is sick and that is why she's can be excuse to dress up, therefore if you bump into cindy at citylink later in the day, please pardon her for being so sloppy.






baby's able to book out for his appointment today, too bad i am working and wont be able to meet him. i miss love ):
it's tough to be alone outside..

Monday, October 20

SICK

gosh, i am feeling so sick now.




there's no way i can finish my assignment by tonight, i don't know if i am plain dumb or lazy. i still remember months ago when i was so motivated to study. lazing around was so bored and i decided to study, told mum and dad that i really wanted to go back to school. was very upset when singapore institute of management actually rejected me and i had to go to mdis.




well, then i got into mdis and i chosed marketing.
why the hell i choose marketing? wtffff.
the only thing that is nice is that i have lovely classmates -.-
bullshit.




(it's not about the school, it's about you, cindynah)






nahs,
i am really disappointed with myself.
i really don't know where my motivation went to.
i thought i am clever, i thought. i thought i could do well, i thought.
but i just realised that i am so stupid, i am always stucked when there's is assignment and always turn to my friends and boyfriend for help. guess, without them i'll definitely perish.





):
why am i so stupid?
(just say that you are dumb, and lazy)






am i getting crazy?
it seemed like i am talking to myself?
is anyone even listening/reading my thoughts now?







am i ke lian or do i deserve it?




i help you answer:
(people who dislike me)= you definitely deserve it you bitch!


(people who encourages me)=you can do it, just that you should work hard and don't be lazy, you are not stupid, jia you!






but why am i still not moving on when there's people encouraging me?









i hate myself for what i've become.
really.

Sunday, October 19

SWEETEST PARALOVE

17th october.
it was actually a planned-day-out for my belated birthday celebration somewhere around august and i had no idea why i dragged on till 17th october, which is like 2months after my birthday.




poor paralove, she was always there waiting for me to be ready to meet up. but i always disappoint her.



well, finally, we met up.






and initially we were supposed to have new york new york. then again, we decided upon seoul garden. and it's serena's treat! how nice! (:





seoul garden at takashimaya.



there, my paralove (:





seoul garden has nice spaghetti, if you like the traditional ones (:






then, she handed me my beeeeeee-lated birthday present.
and that was indeed a big surprise. it is a beautiful do-it-yourself pictorial friendship scrapbook.
damn nice damn nice damn nice damn nice damn nice !!!!!






don't be jealous. haha i love it (:


she pasted the stripes cardboard on the cover herself.










when we look kinda... haha! pretty lehhhhhh.. =p





look at how fugly i am.





how did we ended up working as waitress in heyhey hotpot to retail in wisma?
or perhaps;
how did we ended up from strangers to sweethearts? (:






when she realised she had chicken pox. silly.





craziest shopping day-out (:





her emo days. (:





we always have starbucks when we're in town.





retail therapy.





bet we both look ku-ku lah!





you know i so love you!





haha all over town, hk cafe, nyny, wisma, max&more, tcc, starbucks, waffles, all the sweetest thing you can find! (:





yes, our favourite picture. i miss long hair.





serena chin and cindy nah.
i hope we will be a good ol' story, forever.




she left this page blank. and from this page onwards, i am supposed to fill em up myself. how cool right! i love this book.





and she filled up the very last page.
the pictorial friendship story of cindy and serena. =D





this, belongs to me (:
from my darling paralove to cindy nah nah nah!







and so on..
as usual we went to have fisherios, for mushroom soup.
we shopped a little around town and head off to bugis and shop a little there. and then we head to hey hey hot pot for dinner! man, the place with the nicest memory for work. (:


(that's where i know plove)




i totally forgot about snapping pictures on that day, can you imagine?
how could i?

):






well, such a coincidence, we actually saw douglas, and terrence and also auntie josephine.
and we saw the typical aunty going to the restaurant just because they hope to see their 'idol' terrence. haha =p






i miss that place.
but i hate that place too.
now that so many weird people are conquering it.
and i feel that it so sucks, and that heyhey have actually become a boring workplace.
(if i am to go back)




because kris had left, dragon left for travelling at japan, serena is not around, so is brenda, douglas might not be there often, terrence showed up for minutes and leave, and geraldine won't be around too.





haha i won't be going back too anyhow, just that if. i mean, if (:





not that i am being bias or something, but i just dislike jamie. the hao-lian girl working at heyhey after us, the seniors. (mind you, bitc h) well, she's so pretendious. and i dislike her, and our meal cost us a bomb which was kinda unexpected. maybe she didn't waive off certain charges that is free-for-staff. stupid.





well, nevermind lah, it's not like we can't afford.
just that plove and i cannot tolerate her. argh!





whatever.
well and blah blah blah, we walked alot!!!




oh yes, i remember i want to quote this from paralove, she said this to me when i went emo that night.


"true friends will make you shine, only those that are not will dim your light"


so meaningful right? (:







ok then we watched eagle eyes which is nice. (whoever said that it's not?)




and then before the movie we actually had pastamania?
can you imagine how much we ate? haha.




i really love serena. yes i do.







and i do love my boyfriend too.
and i love so many other people.







am i being too greedy?
but i just love you people, as long as you're my friend (&i hope you know what it means by friend) (:








and there's alot more which i need to blog about, but i got to head to bukit timah to meet fang, i need to do my assignment which i got to hand up tomorrow. and so many, i am so stress. so bye people! (:

Tuesday, October 14

I AM NOT...

to my dearest nose digger (yvonne) and naggy (fangfang) :



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i am really not ah lian lor ):





(whines and whines... and whines......)






though i look like one (which everybody thinks so too). but i am really not okay?
haha, i am sugar =D







good night sweetie pies!
will update soon.











anyway, regarding my post ytd, thanks to fang, mon, priscilla and serena.
your sweet lil' msges did cheered me up.
whoohoo!




























&boy, i so miss you.



Monday, October 13

YAWNS.

half way done with editing blogskin.
am sleeping now, if not later cannot wake up from school confirm tio nag by fang2.



tired anyway.


still 'emo.
still bored.












&i did receive sweet messages from some lovelys.
will reply you people later when i wake up.
sometimes, the ones whom actually cares are the unexpected darlings in your life.
true enough. i've seen it.

Sunday, October 12

EMO FREAKO

i wonder how, i wonder why, i wonder how i became so 'emo ever since baby got into national service. i wonder how everyone close to me drifted away.



was it my fault?
or was it not?




if it's my fault, why no body came to tell me so?
hai yah, hai yah, 'emo cindy is back.







update more later, go and walk walk smoke smoke.
if you're kind, text me to say :
'i am your friend! i am always here for you if you need a listening ear!'
(pardon me, i love to make myself happy. lie to myself.) -.-








byebye.
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